Showing posts with label artists. Show all posts
Showing posts with label artists. Show all posts

Wednesday, 23 May 2012

The Place


As you probably gathered, On The Road has fallen distinctly quiet for some time now. I haven't been in a particularly good place to write; personally, nor other-ly, let's say. Even a sentence which I don't want to bin immediately simply cannot be conjured like a rabbit. But hope has returned favour (for me at least and less so for you) as I would appear to have re-found The Place.

The Place (noun): a place where I don't write, but the words come to me.

In the last couple of years I've had the fortune that The Place was easy to find. In Japan, it was the train between my town, Shiroishi, and Sendai. Every other day I took the train to the city for some kind of social call and, when I wasn't getting a head start with a train beer or two or nestling into the seat drunken dozing, I was writing. The first time I took the train from Shiroishi into Sendai I was with a girl; also recently moved to Shiroishi, also Asian, also called Jenny. The road into Shiroishi had been undeniably less stimulating, we burned tarmac in my supervisor's car, passing small concrete boxes and road signs which my hangover ignored. (cheers guys, you know who you are). That week as I settled into the country life, I became increasingly aware of how small Shiro is. Coming straight from a massive city (the Glasgow metropolitan area has a population of 2 million), I was rather bored. Jen and I decided that what we needed was a bit of human interaction. The week we arrived was also the week during which one of the biggest festivals of the Tohoku region was taking place. Straight after work we jumped on the first train to the Tanabata festival. Jumped is perhaps the wrong verb to use here as the linguistic ordeal of buying a train ticket was a definite hindrance. But soon enough we were sitting down on a train. If you have ever watched Hayao Miyazaki's Spirited Away (if not, I don't like you any more), you probably remember the seating plan on the train. The seats are not arranged like an ordinary train in the UK, with short rows of two or three seats on either side of the carriage, separated by a gangway. Instead, the seats in some trains in Japan are set vertically along the carriage. Not much seating space, but clearly more efficient for a game of sardines. As the train departed we saw pieces of the village we would soon call home. Tiny cardboard houses and rusty ramen signs suddenly gave way to a river riding east, rice paddies populated by hungry cranes, and the hills which bordered them, breathing damp mist.

We passed in unbroken silence.

Of course, as I became better aquainted to the scenery and the respectability of train beer, I became less bewildered on the train. Yet the serenity remained, and became the backdrop for at least 70% of the poetry which I wrote in Japan.

But not all train journeys are quite as productive for writing. The journey from Sendai to Nagano for example. Clocking over 11 hours on local trains, I didn't even write a limerick. Neither did I write on the tracks from Tsuruoka to Shiga (in 2 days I racked up 20 hours of train time). I did, however, write a response to an article about being a guilty 'flyjin' foreigner in post-tsunami-quake-nuclear disaster Japan which was published in the Daily Yomuri. On my phone.

The Transiberian too, despite the ridiculous journey time. I managed only to craft the bare bones of the idea for a play which I have yet to write. The difficulty being, it just wasn't The Place.

Thinking back to Paris, I had so much artistic competition. It was complete immersion; from the ghosts of writers who had starved on Rue Montorgueil, to my contemporaries who arrived on a dream of little more than a 11m2 studio shared with a stray cat and too many coffee grounds. The last flat I found myself squatting in (thanks again Love, I miss you so much), I spent most of my time in some kind of stupor with film makers, travellers, painters, philosophers, bartenders, and chefs. And a lecturer of economics. That's perhaps why the writing was effortless. The life I had there lent itself well to writing, I was permanently stimulated by my bizarre life as a penniless, homeless writer.

The struggling artist. Some clichés are just true.

Wednesday, 22 February 2012

The Exorcism

I have been meaning to update the blog for a few weeks now, but it's been a rather taxing month. I have a few ideas floating around but finding time, love, or patience to write has been difficult to say the very least.

As I am bashing out the next entry or two, I've decided to fill the gap with some poetry I wrote last year. It's kind of an experiment... I'd love to hear what you think of it.



Amnesia 

Room full of galactic spirals
Spread like butter on pages
All lined up. 
Bound in a book
By these stone angels
Pacman angels. 

Gone to Gray Area
For Stuff. Will go 
To Amnesia/Bulldog for quickie
(either wait my return or meet
meet me at Bulldogs)
Lots of love… X

Room full of void
Hosted in the sky.

We're flying,
It's the next Golden Age. 


Amsterdam (naturally), 2010.



Notebooks

I told myself,
I could be a painter,
Painting,
Repainting,
Perfecting. 
O'Hara, he knew
Painters cover blemishes, 
Dissolve them
Remould, reshape, reinvent
And repeat.
Until sardines exist no more,
A painting starves.

I remember
Lines from my teacher.

I will put down my pen.
I will put down my pen.
I will put down my pen.
I will put down my pen.
I will put down my pen.


Japan, 2010



五百円玉 (go-hyaku-en dama; the five hundred yen coin)

I roll the contradiction between my fingers
Perfectly round, yet completely flat. 
'I don't know what "our story" is', he says. 
A feeble excuse.
'There are two sides to every coin', 
But unlike this coin, 
this go-hyaku-en dama,
our value is not yet fixed.

He wants to put "our story" in a box,
shelf it away
between some books
and the shell he found on the beach that day.
Then, he could turn it into a case study.
Or a fairy tale
for a rainy day. 

I want to take "our story" to the jeweller
Have it assessed 
by a professional.
Then, knowing that stories are price-less
I could let it go,
like a red balloon.

'You're a deer', he says, 
Definitively.
Hooves spring from where my hands used to be
(making it only more difficult to write)
that it's easier to divorce that idea you coined
than her,
lying on your bed,
her fingers twisted in your hair. 


Japan, 2011

Monday, 14 November 2011

Down and out in Paris

Here's a poem I wrote recently, still in fairly raw form.
   
    Itchy Feet

My sister asks 'where are you?'
'Writing,
under the awesome shadow
of the Sacre Coeur',
I lie.
'And your plans?'
'A single espresso on a terrace in the sun.'

I procrastinate
Surveyed by bo-bos. 
Under the impression
They are not I. 
I rest my legs
Bend to scratch my heels
My itchy, itchy feet.
Feet that trod half the world around
Past buildings smaller
Past people shorter
Past cups of pleasureless watery coffee,
Till I reached this cup,
Its muddy slosh
Lacking an anthem to boost my heart.
I imagine Amelia
Sinking 10,000 miles forward
Never glancing back
Whilst I recline
Too comfortably
On native tongue luck. 
I fly forward to no glory.
No temptation
To part this wicker chair.

Only the restless twitching,
Of my itchy, itchy feet.



I arrived in France two months ago. The envy of my friends I am now, living the bohemian dream in Paris. I cannot inform a single person of my current status as 'resident of Paris' without being confronted with a chorus of 'ooh, how romantic'.

Paris is undeniable. Gorgeous sandstone tenements accompanied by cute iron balconies, galleries and museums housing some of the greatest artistic treasures in the world, and all the sugar and carbs you can imagine glistening impatiently in the windows of too many boulangeries. Yes, Paris is a beautiful city. Particularly in Autumn when the summer heat has released cool breeze into the city, tugging at scarves and berets in the process. Yet for me, there's something very wrong. It feels like I'm living on a theater set. I don't interact with anyone who I'm not pre-destined to. Paris, like Venice, is stuck. Marbled in time, it is a testament to the will of people. We imposed our imagery on Paris, created it as a place of wonder. Paris has little life of its own, fuelled mainly by romance tourism.

I looked once for the artists in Paris and found a sorry sight, what the French call the 'bo-bo'. The Bohemian Bourgois. The artists fled Paris long ago it seems, extradited by the super inflated cost of living. A tiny studio apartment not more than 11m squared will cost upwards of 550euros per month. Just you try painting in that. Now the only artists left are those with parents willing to spare the change from their pockets. In come the bo-bos. Flooding Paris with pretense, I have met few genuine people since I arrived and I wonder at times, whether I am one of them. 

I think it may be time to leave this town.